Are you watching me?

No I don't have my laptop, or a laptop, but I can't wait any longer to write about this. Somehow I thought it would be acceptable to write this on an iPad. Technology is great.

After reading Nineteen-Eighty-Four by George Orwell, I was left with many thoughts. Thoughts about life, safety and the intelligence of Mr. Orwell. (Not that I thought he was unintelligent, but I think he's probably one of the most intellectual writers I have ever had the honour to read. If I ever write a novel that intelligent I will have lived my life right). Of course I've read articles about this novel and each one pretty much stated that this novel could be a realistic prediction of a future we might face. I'm not saying I didn't believe them but I didn't believe them. Orwell writes about a future that is terrifyingly probable.

I mean, I learnt about Nazi Germany for my history GCSE, how easy it was for the Gestapo to listen in on the people, how easy it was to convince a whole population certain beliefs and how most of this was done with sheer fear. I like to think that we've learnt something since the 1930's, but something tells me if things get really desperate we will accept anyone who tells us they'll make everything better.

The human race is strange, the concept of power is even stranger. How is it that thousands, sometimes millions of people can follow the directions of others? How is that The Big Brother can have so much control over the society within Nineteen-Eigty-Four yet no one knows what, or who it is? We see with the main protagonist, Winston, how easily fear and pain can change one from hating (understanding the danger and nature of the society in which he exists), to loving something so barbaric and terrible. Could this happen in real life though? People tell you if you pretend to love something for a certain amount of time you'll begin to believe it. Usually this is related to your self worth and confidence, but I'm pretty sure it can be transferred to other elements too.

So basically, Nineteen-Eighty-Four terrified me, not in a screaming in the middle of the night way, but in a 'oh yeah politics is crazy and could potential ruin my life' way. I'm pretty sure I'm on the verge of over reacting but let's be honest, no one can predict what will happen in the future - especially a 17 year old girl writing her thoughts onto her blog and who has a tendency to be anxious about almost anything.

I hope you enjoyed this, or at least stayed with me until the end. Do you have the same fears and thoughts? I mean, I do have more complex thoughts, for instance what happens after death and why we exist but that's a story for another day.

Until next time, I guess.

Oh hello, October.

My laptop is still missing. I'm assuming it's still being fixed, but it's been so long I honestly have no idea. So no book review today people! I've finally learned how to type on this tiny tiny keyboard, but I have about 3 essays to write, a biology exam to revise for and a piece of English coursework to change. I want to get most of that done today. It won't happen but I have every hope because I just made the most fantastic cup of coffee.

So to keep you all interested and in the knowledge, that yes I am still existing in this world and I hate the fact I have no time to write a decent book review, I will create a short list as to why I am extremely happy it is finally October. (I even changed my calender on the first of this month because I am that excited)

• The leaves look pretty
• It's finally cold enough to wear scarves and hats
• It's the month Taylor Swift's new album, 1989 comes out 
• I'm going to see Ed Sheeran and I am very very excited
• Grace's Guide: The Art Of Pretending to be an Adult will be released this month. (And I need that because I will be an adult in a few months, someone help, where did my childhood go?)

• I'm going to to Belgium and France to visit the World War One memorials, and I'm really excited and interested to go. (ps. we'll also be visiting Paris which is somewhere I've wanted to go for years)
• COFFEE
• I can finally wear my boots
• I can finally wear the dresses I've acquired that aren't for the summer
• Jumpers can now be worn again
• It's lovely to be able to stay inside and not feel guilty that you're missing out on the sunlight in the outside space
• Listening to music feels 100% better and I don't know why
• You can eat hot dinners again without feeling like you're going to die 
• I will hopefully get my laptop back this month.

So yes. October is possibly the best month, and no one can tell me differently.

I shall now go and do all the homework. (ps if you do A Levels don't expect any free time - but also don't give up because A Levels = better opportunities for your future. Whoa that got deep. Abort) 

Bye!